there is that one thing
that you will always want
always long for
but never own
you may hold it
just for a little while
an impetuous trial run
a momentary test drive
a lingering taste
in a dark smoky bar
and as you look through
tavern windows
at the ice and rain outside
for a brief moment
a spark inside of you ignites
and there in that flame
which quickly moves to an ember
you feel alive
like it's your first true day of life
and when the reality sets in
and your heart releases its stranglehold
on your head,
you realize
that he will always be
the one you want
the one you never had
the one who got away
and you say that to yourself
over and over
as you watch him
slipping farther and farther away