The Unfettered Brain

My Poems and Random Thoughts

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Location: Varnville, South Carolina, United States

I am your average 26 year old retard who desperately believes that deep down, there is good in all people. I am trying to find my place in this world... and I have no idea if I am even close. My goal is to be happy - and I am getting there - slowly, but surely.... I think.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

My sleep schedule is off yet again. I dunno.... I will wake up super early like I actually have the motivation to do something great today.... then i will watch a movie and take a nap. See, this is me being a productive member of society. Being home is ok, but then it sucks. My mom apparently thinks I am bulimic. When in fact, I have an anal-retentive attention to detail. I know the fat, cals, and carbs of everything that goes in my body - including a tictac. So, when I eat a reduced fat oreo.... I can feel her watching me. It is weird. By saying "it is weird", I am referring both to the Reduced Fat Oreo and my mom. The cookie -tastes like a generic Oreo, just so you know.

So, I watched Pleasantville last night. I ADORE that movie. I would love to live in a world of Poodle skirts and sweater sets. The only problem is the 40 pounds of underwear people had to endure back then.

Speaking of underwear - hipsters are indeed the shit.

Ok, I am up painfully early and I am going to go to bed for my daily nap. Sometimes, I can be such a loser it hurts. lol.

Oh and as a little side note.... I have discovered that I never need to get anything. I will want something so bad - and then, in that instant when I finaly know it is mine.... I dont want it anymore. I am convinced that I never really want the object, I want the feeling of wanting something. That knot in your stomach, that thought constantly in your head.... that is what I am after, not the object itself. Maybe this is like "Catch n Release" dating? :)